Working the Line

THE BORDER PATROL AGENT was driving us to supper in a desert border city. Since the publication of my book The Devil’s Highway, I have found myself in this situation with regularity. When I started writing that book, there was no indication that the migra agents would come to consider me their confidant. Even, for some agents, a friend. If you had told me this in my more radical days, or in my Tijuana boyhood, I would have laughed.

It wasn’t late, but the night was already heavy on the land, dropping hard like it does in desert winter. We rode in a late-model pickup — club cab. And the agent was looking up at a railroad bridge as we passed under. “Saw this guy once,” he said, almost to himself. “Three guys, actually. Two on either side, holding up the third. They were staggering down the tracks, you know. So I lit ’em up with my spotlight and got out of the truck.” In my memory, this moment lasts forever. Saguaros splash in our headlights, looking like landscape in black-and-white noir films. He said: “The guy in the middle . . . the train had cut off his feet. But the weight of the train . . . it had pinched his ankles closed. He didn’t seem to know it. He was trying to walk on his stumps.”

But that story wasn’t what really got to me.

When we pulled up to the restaurant, on what had started out as a completely happy dinner date, looking for some steaks and salads, he parked and sat there for a moment.

“Do you know what it sounds like when a locomotive hits a human body?” he asked.

The memories were coming on, unbidden.

“No,” I answered.

He said, “It sounds like an aluminum bat hitting a line drive.”

Later, he told me: “We couldn’t find that guy. We looked for two miles.”

Then: “I saw him fly up over the train.”

Finally: “He was in a tree. Somebody shone a light up there. He was on top of a tree.”

We went in and ate supper like nothing had happened.

“ALL THESE AGENTS EVER WANTED,” says David Taylor, “was a fair shake.” I think this secret society of Border Patrol warriors sees us both as slightly brain-damaged liberal dupes. But they forgive us. They don’t quite go as far as to pat us on the head — sometimes, in my case, anyway, they delight in terrorizing me for their own entertainment. But they seem amused by our rosy view of humanity. Yet . . . they trust us to give them a fair shake. It is touching in ways that are hard to describe. I don’t know if I can.

They give you things. If you tell the truth, whether you like them or not, whether you agree with them or not, they pay attention and they respond. They have given me gifts like beautiful wood carvings. They give us t-shirts, hats. They cut the patches off their uniforms and send them. Because the truth is, the Border Patrol is assaulted and insulted by both the right and the left, and they sometimes have no one they can trust.

“I don’t care if you hate us,” an agent told me. “What I want from you is to tell the truth you see here. That’s it.”

ITEM: SHERIFF RALPH OGDEN of Yuma, Arizona, looks about ten feet tall when you meet him. He’s a big ’un already, but he wears a tall Stetson hat and cowboy boots. It makes him about six foot ten. He has Wyatt Earp’s mustache, too. He’s so recognizable that there are Ralph Ogden bumper stickers that show a hat, a ’stache, and a badge. Everybody knows who that is.

Ralph (his initials are REO, and you just can’t help calling him REO Speedwagon sometimes, which ends up being funny because he’s an off-road racer, too) is the ultimate desert lawman. He knows the border inside and out, and he reads many books, and he appreciates art and hummingbirds and elk. He takes great pains to point out to strangers that he is not Joe Arpaio, the tough-guy anti-immigrant sheriff always in the news for his shenanigans. REO is the lawman you want to show up when the outlaws have laid siege to your homestead. Border Patrol agents love him, though they wouldn’t say a word like that. They’ll tell you, “He’s all right.”

At a recent public speaking appearance, he and I talked backstage. He reached out a hand and said, “Come here.” I stepped over to him. “Here.” I stared at his clenched fist. “Take it.” I put out my hand and he dropped a gorgeous silver medal into my palm. “That’s for going above and beyond the call of duty,” he said. “That’s for telling the truth.”

ITEM: AT A READING IN CHICAGO, a former Border Patrol agent, now reassigned to Homeland Security, stepped out of the audience and reached into his jacket. He pulled out a USBP service ribbon/medallion.

“What are you doing?” I asked.

“I’m going to pin you.”

“I can’t accept that,” I cried.

“You have to accept it.”

He pinned the medal to my lapel in front of a crowd of sniffling libs — we know a good weepy scene when we see one.

“If you cut this boy,” he announced, “he bleeds forest green.”

I was whispering: Not really! Not so much!

We all laughed.

DAVID TAYLOR, it must be admitted here, went way deeper into the U.S. Border Patrol world than I ever dreamed of going. It was either an act of daring or of sheer madness. But I suspect there is no great art without some bad craziness mixed in there somewhere. He has spent over seven hundred hours on patrol. He has gone all along the Mexican borderline, taking photos in remote and dangerous places, sometimes with Border Patrol agents watching over him from a distance. He has been rousted by federales . . . well, come to think of it, so have I. But if anyone deserves a medal for duty, it is David. What he has accomplished is unprecedented. He has enjoyed total access, and he has brought us visions of a world we have never been allowed to see. Troubling? Yes. Beautiful? Yes. Ugly? Absolutely. Haunting? Oh, yes.


YOU FIND YOURSELF in a swirl of history. Your first agents put up the timeworn cop’s barrier: flat stare, slightly aggressive suspicion, hazing. Then they let you in, but they speak in PC phrases, lest you turn their words on them and burn them in print. Then you know one guy, and he likes you, and when he likes you, the other guys relax. I imagine it must be the same with war correspondents. Mysterious chemistry.

Agents from all over the country wrote; their wives and daughters wrote more than they did. Many families of la pinche migra don’t know what their dads and moms go through in the uniform, and they were reading me to find out! Talk about responsibility.

A daughter wrote to tell me how her dad would come off duty, put on his shorts and t-shirt, and fill water jugs for undocumented walkers passing through their backyard. A wife wrote to tell me she had to go to the station and intercept her husband’s Friday paycheck because if she didn’t he’d cash it and buy food for the detainees and go back to work. An agent wrote to scold me for aiding and abetting illegal activity, but then he read the book and wrote back and apologized.

The question I am asked the most is some version of, “What are the Border Patrol guys really like?”

Here’s what I can tell you, and I think David would agree: in life, some people are devils, some few are angels, and the vast majority of us fall in between. Whether you are wicked or righteous depends upon the prejudice or expectations of the judge who watches you. Could we walk a mile in their shoes before we make our judgment? No. No, we couldn’t. These images might be as close as we get.

Luis Alberto Urrea, 2005 Pulitzer Prize finalist for nonfiction and member of the Latino Literature Hall of Fame, is a prolific and acclaimed writer who uses his dual-culture life experiences to explore greater themes of love, loss and triumph. Born in Tijuana, Mexico to a Mexican father and an American mother, Urrea has published extensively in all the major genres. The author of 13 books, Urrea has won numerous awards for his poetry, fiction and essays. Urrea lives with his family in Naperville, IL, where he is a professor of creative writing at the University of Illinois-Chicago.


  1. Great article and fitting tribute to Emmy Lou.

  2. back in the 60s when i was about eight years old, (i’m 51) i lived in old fort bliss. right down the mountain fron the university of texas in el paso. the rio grande was my playground. i used to know a lot of border patrol people down there. or at least they knew me. they would see me cross the river back and forth and they never said anything. until one day. i used to steal a mare and a colt from the mexican side of the river. one day this one border patrol guy rode down on me when i got the horses across. no bridle, no saddle or nothing. i would just slap the mare on the side of the head and she would go. he was something out of a john wayne movie. as soon as i heard him, (he snuck up on me in his vehicle). i let the horses go. he just laughed and told me in a texas twang, “why didnt you ride them horses, we watch you all the time from up there”, pointing to a bluff behind him. i know some pretty good ones, they are not all racists, at least not all of them. if anyone can give us honest information and sound believable, it’s the border patrol. “la migra”. it would be nice if this agent is still with us, maybe he rememebers me.

  3. I read the book, a must for anyone who doubts or doesn’t have a clue of what life is like for these guys and gals. Living near the border in Arizona for 60 years we’ve seen many changes. Not many of them for the better in terms of understanding the situation in Mexico. Or here for that matter. Urrea is a powerful story teller with the ring of authenticity. We look forward to the day when Washington wakes from its long slumber and does something positive about immigration.

  4. Thank the heavens for Luis Alberto Urrea! I never knew the truth about the Border Patrol until I read his writings. No doubt the BP agent who fills up water jugs for migrants crossing the desert and the one who uses his paycheck to buy stuff for detainees are typical for what you find in the Border Patrol. And all the well documented abuses by Border Patrol agents and their willing participation in the growing US police state in the borderlands that has led to the deaths of many thousands of migrants, divided families, etc. are not representative of what takes place. It is not the truth. Only Urrea has been honest enough to present the truth. He has the patches and other little gifts from Border Patrol agents, who have confided in him, to prove it. Thank you, Orion, for publishing this very enlightening essay. And thank for Luis Alberto Urrea for your modesty, self-criticism, and honesty.

  5. in a way this just restores my faith in humanity. yes the border patrol is full of people that are in it for all the wrong reasons. but they are the exception to the rule. i have seen border patrol agents dive into rapid river currents to save a drowning person. if that doesn’t ease our concerns about how this country has turned zenophobic then just read the book. take a walk in the desert with a gallon of water, which after a couple of miles will seem like 10 pounds. they do a thankless job. i am for comprehensive immigration reform but we do need to get a handle on this immigration thing, especially when people die trying to find the jobs lost to n.a.f.t.a. they are chasing what is rightfully theirs, jobs. i pray for those border patrol agents who have taken their own lives because of what they see daily that we only read about in horror novels. thank you border patrol.

  6. sorry, i meant that a gallon of water which weighs 8 lbs, will seem like 100.

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